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I'm just in the process of setting up my funnel for my band "Craving Rain." It's an acoustic alternative rock + haunting vocals project made up of myself and another guy (two acoustic guitars, my female vocals and some backup harmonies). I'm currently just going through your copywriting course (I've already completed the facebook ads course, record release formula, and some of the MMM 4.0.. but I'll be going through the entire MMM 4.0 very soon!).

Here is my blog, which is about 1570 words (please let me know what you think):

I performed for the very first time when I was fourteen years old at an old folks home. When it was my turn to sing, I had to tell my singing teacher that I couldn’t do it…I was too scared. So she allowed the rest of her vocal students to perform and then she wrapped up the show. We waited till all of the seniors had left and it was only my parents left sitting in the back row. It was finally my turn and I couldn’t back out.

I cried the whole way through my performance. It was the scariest thing I had ever done…

Let me take you back to when and where this whole musical path I created for myself started…

When I was really young, at least younger than 10, I remember standing in front of my bedroom closet looking up at all of the cuttings of magazines that were taped to my closet door. I had been obsessed with the popular boy and girl bands of the 90’s and so had them plastered all over my room. I often stared at them dreaming of how amazing their lives must be.

There is one particular memory that stands out though while staring up at all of those posters. I remember wishing with all of my heart that I could be an amazing singer.

It wasn’t until I was around 25 years old that I actually remembered this moment from my past and thought about how amazing it was.

My dream had materialized!

I had grown to become a great vocalist and was in a hard rock band at that time called “This Day Burns.” Dreams do really come true!

How did I get there, you may be wondering…

I started to play guitar when I was 10 years old but quit after a couple years of taking classical lessons. Then, when I was about 13 years old, I started singing lessons. Again, after about 2 years, I quit because even after my initial performance at the old folks home, I still absolutely dreaded getting back on stage for each and every performance. I didn’t believe in myself and I was extremely scared of being rejected.

Not too long after I quit singing lessons, my mom tricked me into starting to write songs. I often got bored at home while she was busy working in the kitchen, so she threw suggestions at me all the time to keep myself entertained as an only child.

One day she told me to start writing songs but since I had started my rebellious teenager years, I told her “no,” with a shit load of attitude. Little did I know my mom had a trick up her sleeve… She secretly talked to my best friend Kristie one day when she was over at my house and convinced her to suggest writing songs to me by saying “come on, it’ll be fun.” Obviously, I was sold on the idea since my friend suggested it!

Kristie and I began to write little snippets of songs together that my mom absolutely loved. I had more of a knack for creating melodies and Kristie had an amazing gift with words and writing lyrics. It was the perfect friendship…almost like it was meant to be.

This all happened at the beginning of high school, when I noticed everyone was beginning to learn how to play guitar and this inspired me to pick the instrument back up again. Not too much later, Kristie and I along with a couple other close friends formed an all girl band that we named, “Fake This Moment.”

My girl band faded out once we all graduated high school and I had finally moved out of my parent’s house seeking independence. I couldn’t wait to leave!

When I hit the age of 19, my friend suggested that I audition for a band that was going to have a reality tv show based around it called “Rockstar: Supernova.” I ended up making the top 6 vocalists in Canada (and top 50 in the world!) for the competition and they flew me down to LA to audition in front of Tommy Lee (Motley Crue), Jason Newstead (Metallica) and Gilby Clarke (Guns and Roses). It was the most nerve-racking audition I ever had…I messed up the lyrics for a cover I sang by Nirvana (“Lithium”) but just kept going…and then I bored them to death with a Sheryl Crow cover that I sang. At the end I convinced them to listen to just one more song. It was an original that I had written and they seemed to really dig that. I was embarrassed that I only knew who Tommy Lee was and therefore shook only his hand at the end of the audition, because I didn’t recognize the other band members. My age was showing!

It was a good thing that I didn’t make it onto the actual reality show because I lied about my age! I was only 19 and I needed to be 21. Whooooopsies…

Not making the cut for the show really got me down…it fed that insecurity that I had always had. On the bright side, it motivated me to write a song called “Somber” that I later recorded when I was in a band called This Day Burns.

After that amazing opportunity with Rockstar: Supernova, I worked with a few bands and gained more experience writing with other musicians, but quit the last one when I felt it was my time to move away from home. Victoria, BC, Canada is where I was drawn to at the age of 23. I decided to move there after visiting my cousin Lisa for 10 days (I really moved there because I met a dude…but that’s a whole other story in and of itself). I fell in love with the vibe of the people and the beauty of the province…If you’ve been there, you’ll know what I’m talking about.

But maybe I just moved away from home because I wanted to run away from myself. Or maybe everything.

Once I moved, I decided to give up on music. I felt like I was so old and I hadn’t gotten anywhere with it yet, so I might as well move on and just focus on finishing the science degree that I had started.

I felt like a failure. This insecurity followed me leading me down a path of fear and anxiety. But after 6 months of consciously neglecting my life’s calling, I was drawn back to music.

I couldn’t ignore it anymore.

All of sudden I felt like I needed to write songs again and find a band because I didn’t want to regret not having tried. I promptly posted an ad on craigslist and within a week, I got an email from a guy who was stoked on my voice and we started This Day Burns. This was the band that I would be in for the next 7 years of my life.

We released two EP’s before we called it quits in 2017. I could see the end was coming with This Day Burns, so I started up Craving Rain a few months before hand because I knew I needed to continue having a creative outlet.

Music allowed me to release a lot of emotions that I’d go through, which were most extreme when I was going through the stressful parts of my romantic relationships. I’d mostly write about the struggles that my insecurities had caused within them.

There was one particular relationship that brought out an incredibly jealous side of me, which caused the guy who I was with to completely shut down. This left me feeling so alone, isolated and rejected…and this turned into an on and off type of relationship that lasted way too long…but what it really forced me to do, was actually start to learn how to love myself. It was an incredibly painful journey but I learned a very important life lesson from it.

Once I banished the negative thought prison from my brain, in came the positivity and this expanded out into the rest of my life. The thoughts I had directly affected the actions I took, and consequently, the outlook on life I developed.

This mindset helped me become more grateful, which resulted in greater happiness.

Who woulda thought.

This energy I projected out into the world helped me focus on the things I wanted in this life… and then BAM! I manifested my dream man, and then not too long after we got engaged (!). Just when I thought it couldn’t get any better, we then purchased our dream 5-acre property.

This positivity also allowed me to become more confident as a musician and about my skills and not letting fear hold me back.

I had no idea how the heck I made this all happen, but I feel like once I shifted my mindset to a more positive one and believing that I was deserving of an amazing life, that I manifested it…or it could all be a coincidence. But if it wasn’t, THAT was the magic that I believe I called upon when I was a really young child…when I first wished that I could become a great singer.

I’m a musician AND a scientist, but I still believe in magic. They say magic is just science we haven’t discovered yet, don’t they?